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I woke up at about ten in the morning having that feeling. I dunno what the fuck is wrong with me. I just dun wanna talk to anybody. I wanna let this day pass without talking to anyone.

Then not knowing that I am not in the mood to have jokes with anyone, my friend's mother (which happens to be my guardian) told me that I dun look good this morning. That I look so ugly. Since I didn't woke p at five (FYI: She's always telling me that I am the most good-looking guy in the world everytime I woke up early and help her prepare usual stuff in her store. Maybe she's doin' it everytime for nothing but just to encourage me to sleep early so I could wake up early too. But the point of saying it for me to sleep early (particularly at about 9 pm) isn't that effective. I still sleep at 12am onwards. Every night I spend about six hours or more in an internet cafe. I just can't stop myself from spending time in the shop. Blogging and online gaming seem to be a very addictive hobbies I couldn't resist.

Last May 7, 2007 it was about three weeks before I promised to myself not to play online games anymore for they did nothing important in my life. Yeah! I have succeeded. But it lasts for only three weeks. That means I still play online games now. The good thing is, it isn't an MMORPG anymore. It is still an online game but instead of being an MMORPG, it is now just an online RPG. Dota is an online/offline RPG and it's not that hard to resist of compared to MMORPGs. I can even stop myself from playing it whenever I want without sacrificing anything. MMORPGs play a big rule in my life especially in terms of ruining it. Yeah! Online game is so amusing. It even gives you more opportunities. It open doors to you and expands your horizon.

The best thing about online gaming is that when you're doing it for a living. But how can I take that advantage when they're so hard for me to reach? Maybe the only option I have is to quit online gaming and move to other field where my mastery belong so success is within a grasp for me.